First week of school is over and done with! I am so glad, I need to be able to chill. Dang! School just got me focusing on getting sleep, homework, school, getting sleep, homework, and school and nothing else! Even this weekend is going to be filled with homework and now I'm spending my own money on school? I never thought I would put this much effort in, but I am so happy and grateful I get the chance to!
This weekend really gonna insist of me chilling. That is all I care about. Just relaxing, but I also got to get the house clean. I haven't had time for that with my crazy school schedule I have to keep up, but on weekends I can get it done!
My week has actually been good! The first three days were fucking awesome. I got to be in Advisory and talk to Ashton. He is just so easy and fun to talk to. He be crackin' my shit up though, I ain't going to lie! He says "bad kitty" all the time, it is so funny how he does it. He uses a sexy voice, weird face, and gyrates his hips in a humping motion. So funny! I swear Wednesdays are going to be the highlight of my year, those are the days I have Advisory. I don't know what it is, but I just love seeing him. We just talk and talk and talk, and laugh and laugh. I love it, nobody else can really do that. I might be developing feelings.... but unfortunately that would never happen between us... his focus is soccer and school... and plus, I don't fall under the category of pretty.
I'm not afraid to say it. I think I have accepted it by now... It sucks but all I can do is hope and pray that I will find someone I can become so close to and be in deep love with. I want to find my perfect kindred soul for this life... I know my soul-mate is waiting for me, I just can't wait to feel so close to someone like that.
But anyways, I know and am okay with the fact that I don't fall into the beautiful category. I know that gives me the chance to let my soul's beauty shine through... I think that is the only beauty that matters. I know I have a beautiful soul and I can't wait to have someone to show it to! ♥